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  “ROBIN KAYE DELIVERS A GREAT READ EVERY TIME.”

  —USA Today bestselling author Maureen Child

  PRAISE FOR THE BAD BOYS OF RED HOOK

  You’re the One

  “Kaye’s luscious descriptions of food and chef menus are a great touch as she continues her engaging Bad Boys of Red Hook series.”

  —Booklist (starred review)

  Back to You

  “Passionate and poignant . . . an emotionally gratifying contemporary romance.”

  —Kirkus Reviews

  “Heartwarming, sexy, and definitely enthralling. . . . Ms. Kaye delivered it with style, complete with humor and a swoon-worthy hero.”

  —Under the Covers

  “If you like contemporary romance with a nice sizzle . . . I definitely recommend Back to You.”

  —The Romance Dish

  FURTHER PRAISE FOR ROBIN KAYE AND HER NOVELS

  “Robin Kaye creates characters that reach in and grab your heart.”

  —LuAnn McLane

  “Charming readers with her wit and style, Kaye creates an extremely sensual romance.”

  —Booklist

  “You’ll be in romance heaven.”

  —Night Owl Reviews (top pick)

  “Wildly entertaining and comical from the start. . . . The love scenes are hot and sexy, and the chemistry sizzles!”

  —RT Book Reviews

  “Contains as much heart as it does heat, and the result is a book that will make you melt.”

  —The Long and the Short of It

  “A treat to read, and a sweet, funny way to start the new year.”

  —New York Times bestselling author Eloisa James

  “A fun and spicy story. Robin Kaye is a fresh new voice in romance fiction.”

  —USA Today bestselling author Susan Donovan

  Also by Robin Kaye

  Hometown Girl

  (A Penguin Special Novella)

  You’re the One

  Back to You

  HAD TO BE YOU

  BAD BOYS OF RED HOOK

  ROBIN KAYE

  SIGNET ECLIPSE

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  Copyright © Robin Kawczynski, 2014

  Excerpt from Hometown Girl copyright © Robin Kawczynski, 2012

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  ISBN 978-1-101-63833-0

  PUBLISHER’S NOTE

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

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  Contents

  Praise

  Also by Robin Kaye

  Title page

  Copyright page

  Dedication

  Acknowledgments

  CHAPTER 1

  CHAPTER 2

  CHAPTER 3

  CHAPTER 4

  CHAPTER 5

  CHAPTER 6

  CHAPTER 7

  CHAPTER 8

  CHAPTER 9

  CHAPTER 10

  CHAPTER 11

  CHAPTER 12

  CHAPTER 13

  CHAPTER 14

  CHAPTER 15

  CHAPTER 16

  CHAPTER 17

  CHAPTER 18

  CHAPTER 19

  CHAPTER 20

  CHAPTER 21

  CHAPTER 22

  CHAPTER 23

  CHAPTER 24

  Excerpt from HOMETOWN GIRL

  To Margie Lawson and Michael Hauge—two of the most inspiring, knowledgeable, and gifted writing instructors I’ve had the good fortune to know. They teach me something new every time I see them, hear them, or take an online course with them. I’m blessed to count them among my dearest friends as well as instructors. If not for their classes, I would never have been published and stayed published.

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  I’d love to tell you I wrote this book all on my own. After all, part of the writer’s mystique is the solitary life we live. For me at least, the solitary part is a load of bunk; I believe it takes a village to make a book. Here are some of the people who have helped me:

  I’d like to thank Barbara Perry, LCSW-C. Barbara is a therapist who specializes in childhood and adult trauma. If not for Barbara, this book would never have been written. She spent countless hours with me, answering questions and talking about Slater’s childhood and how one in his position would live through his trauma and become a successful, loving man in spite of it. If there are mistakes, they are all on me; if I did a good job with it, Barbara deserves all the credit.

  I’m lucky to have the love and support of my incredible family. My husband, Stephen, who after twenty-three years of marriage is still the man of my dreams and best friend. My children, Tony, Anna, and Isabelle, who despite being teenagers are my favorite people to hang out with. Alex Henderson and Jessye and Dylan Green, whom I love like my own kids. All of them make me laugh, amaze me with their intelligence and generosity, and make me proud every day. My parents, Richard Williams and Ann Feiler, and my stepfather, George Feiler, who always encouraged me and continue to do so.

  My wonderful critique partners, Laura Becraft and Deborah Villegas. They shortened my sentences, corrected my grammar, and put commas where they needed to be. They listened to me whine when my muse took a vacation, gave me great ideas when I was stuck, and answered that all-important question: Does this suck? They helped me plot, loved my characters almost as much as I did, and challenged me to be a better writer. They are my friends, my confidantes, and my bullshit meters.

  I owe a debt of gratitude to their families, who so graciously let me borrow them during my deadline crunch. So, to Robert, Joe, Elisabeth, and Ben Becraft, and Ruben, Alexander, Donovan, and Cristian Villegas, you have my thanks and eternal gratitude.

  I’d also like to thank my writing friends, who are always there when I need a fresh eye or a sounding board—Grace Burrowes, Hope Ramsay, Susan Donovan, Mary Freeman, R. R. Smythe, Margie Lawson, Michael Hauge, and Christie Craig, all the Killer Fiction authors and my RWA chapters, WRW-DC, Valley Forge Romance Writers, Maryland Romance Writers, the Golden Network, and PASIC.

  I wrote most of this book at the Starbucks in Mt. Airy, Maryland, and I have to thank all my baristas for keeping me in laughter and coffee while I camped out in their store. Josh, Garrison, Lamar, Ginny, Amy, Edward, Sue, Eric, Ann, Ashley, Maggie, Jena, Blair, Julie, Nick, Molly, Nate, Holly, Sam, Lauren, and Tara. I also need to thank my fellow customers who have become wonderful friends: Anne, Mike, Doug, Jerry, and Ann.

  As always, I want to thank my incredible agent, Kevan Lyon, for all she does, and my team
at New American Library—the cover artists for the beautiful job they did and my editors, Kerry Donovan and Jesse Feldman, for all their insight, direction, and enthusiasm. Working with you has been a real pleasure.

  CHAPTER 1

  The last time Slater Shaw had climbed up a fire escape outside his foster father’s Brooklyn bar, he’d been helping his brother out of a jam when they were kids. Showers of iron flakes fell with each step he took. The fire escape had been rickety back then. Ten more years in Red Hook’s sea air hadn’t helped.

  Slater cursed under his breath as the telltale scent of cigar smoke permeated the alley where he’d been unloading a crate. He’d noticed his foster father, Pete Calahan—the curmudgeonly ex-cop turned heart patient, who went against doctor’s orders as often as possible—on the roof, puffing away like a teenager smoking in the boys’ room.

  Slater wasn’t ready for the role reversal, but the consequences from Pop deep-sixing his doctor’s orders were worse than Slater’s fear of confronting the old fart.

  He’d thought about going into the apartment and taking the stairs to the roof, but then he’d have to explain Pop’s bad behavior to ten-year-old Nicki—his dad’s newest stray. When Slater reached the top, he threw his leg over the low wall and tugged himself onto the roof.

  Pop watched, shaking his head, not even bothering to hide the smoking evidence. “Do you have a death wish, boy?”

  Slater wiped his hands on his pants. “No, but it seems you do. Shit, Pop. Put that damn thing out and go inside.”

  “One cigar isn’t going to kill me.” He took a couple puffs and then examined the growing ash. “I don’t know what all the stink is about—it’s not like I inhale.”

  “I don’t care. I’ve come here to help and you’ve turned me into a glorified babysitter for you, Nicki, and her big-ass mutt. What the hell were you thinking taking on a little girl to raise at your age?” Nicki was a cute enough kid, but every time he looked at her, he got an eerie step-on-your-grave type feeling.

  “I was thinking Nicki reminded me a lot of you boys—that’s what. She needed a home, and I gave her one.”

  “You can’t handle her on your own.” Slater didn’t know the first thing about little girls and wasn’t really interested in finding out.

  “I don’t have to. I have you boys to help out. I’ll be back to normal soon.”

  “Not if you don’t follow the doctor’s instructions. You’ve only been out of the hospital two months and you’re exhausted after working a few hours. You don’t know how long it’s going to take for you to recover fully.” Slater looked out over the bay, and the Statue of Liberty stared back at him. How ironic that the symbol of freedom stood before him, when all he felt was a sense of losing his own. Knowing that the doctors swore Pop was out of danger didn’t make Slater sleep any better. He was a grown man, but he couldn’t understand why losing his dad scared him to his marrow. His fear wasn’t rational, so he did what he always did—he compartmentalized.

  Pop sat on an Adirondack chair and looked at him. “Last I heard, you weren’t due home for a few more weeks. Then I walk in yesterday and there you are with a chip on your shoulder the size of the Flatiron Building. I’m glad you’re here, but what the hell happened to have you running home early? What put you in such a shit mood?

  “What makes you think something happened?” Slater put his boot on the edge of the other chair. They both needed a fresh coat of paint. He’d never cop to being played and dumped, especially not with Pop. How could he have missed that Dominique was engaged? She’d used him like a disposable plate to be thrown away after dessert. He was Chinet and no matter what he did, he’d never be Wedgwood. Fuck.

  “I know you, son. Did you finally get your heart broken?”

  Slater tried to freeze his features, keep them locked in place, but he knew he failed.

  Pop had that gotcha look in his eyes. There was a reason he’d been a great cop before retiring to run the Crow’s Nest.

  “No. I’m not heartbroken. I’m pissed. Dominique measured me on her high-society ruler and I came up short in every way.” Every way but the length of his dick and his skill in the sack.

  Pop raised his glass of scotch. “Yup”—Pop took another drag off his stogie—“you got your heart broken.”

  “Close, but no cigar.” Slater reached over and plucked the stogie out of Pop’s hand and ground it out on the tarred roof.

  “Shit, why’d you have to do that?”

  “Because I won’t let you kill yourself.”

  His dad studied him like a jeweler studying a diamond, searching for just the right place to make the next cut. “There’s more to this than you’re telling me. I know it and you know it. Whatever it is, it’s embarrassing—I can tell by the color of your face. So you got taken in by a woman. Congratulations—every man does at least once.” Pop stood. “If you want to talk about it, I’m here.”

  “Thanks, but there’s nothing to talk about.” He’d take this one to the grave.

  “Yeah, that’s what I thought. Now come down through the apartment the right way, the last thing I need is Nicki watching you play Spider-Man—she already has an unhealthy fascination with Wonder Woman.”

  Pop turned and took the stairs down to the apartment and Slater reluctantly followed.

  He slipped out into the alley undetected, used the crowbar, and ripped into the crate entombing the one thing he did love. He hammered the crowbar under the wood, urgency pumping his blood in time to the throbbing of his temples.

  He had to get to her.

  He wanted her.

  He wanted her with the same burning desire a pubescent boy wanted a centerfold.

  Another board fell to the ground and a flash of chrome shone through the darkness. Baseball-sized knots in his upper back and shoulders loosened enough to give his neck free range of motion. He’d been home for less than twenty-four hours and he already needed to escape. Escape from the apartment, escape from his past, escape from Red Hook.

  He ripped another board off the crate and threw it against the brick building with more force than necessary. He’d lived in Seattle for two years, and when he’d left, it had surprised him that there was no one he cared to say good-bye to. And for the first time in his life, that bothered him.

  Slater tried to erase Dominique from his mind but it wasn’t working. No matter what he did, no matter how far he’d come, the only chance he had to clean off the stink of poverty was to sign that contract with OPEC. The money they were offering more than made up for his crack-shack beginnings.

  “Whatcha doing?”

  Slater jumped. Shit. He couldn’t believe Nicki had snuck up on him. He looked over his shoulder; her long curly brown hair whipped in the icy late-fall wind. The girl was all legs and feet, too skinny for her height, and her jacket swamped her slight frame. Clothes that were three sizes too wide and three inches too short hid her bone-thin arms and legs.

  “Just unloading my bike.”

  Nicki hesitated before moving closer. He saw himself in the haunted, wary look in her eyes, like she’d seen someone use a crowbar as a weapon instead of as a tool. He didn’t know what was worse, how much she reminded him of himself at that age, or that she’d probably seen that kind of violence. Both made the unsettled feelings he had about Nicki even worse.

  “Pop said he’d buy me a bike this spring. Maybe you or Logan or Storm can teach me to ride it in the park. Bree won’t let me ride on the street—she’s weird about stuff like that.”

  His brother Storm and sister-in-law Bree were on their honeymoon. They’d grown up together and from what Slater remembered of Bree’s overprotective mother, the fact that Bree wouldn’t let Nicki ride her bike in the street wasn’t all that surprising.

  “It’s not a bicycle, Nicki. It’s a motorcycle.”

  “Oh.” She turned a little red and kicked a piece of broke
n pavement into a pothole. “So, can you take me for a ride sometime?”

  “I guess that’s up to Pop.” He gazed at the second floor of the building and wondered if the old man had sent her down to keep him company. “If Pop says it’s okay, I’ll take you for a ride. It’s pretty cold this time of year.” Way too cold for a kid with no natural insulation.

  Nicki’s hair flew across her face and she pulled the jacket tighter. “I’m going in to ask Pop right now, okay?”

  “Sure, but it’s getting late.” He needed to take a long, cold ride. Not the kind of ride he’d take with a slip of a girl on the back of his bike. No, he needed to let out the throttle and go balls to the wall. He needed to rid himself of the antsy feeling he’d fought all day with nothing to do but roam the apartment. “Even if it’s okay with Pop, I’m not taking you out tonight. We’ll have to do it when it’s still light.”

  Nicki’s shoulders slumped, making her look like a longer-haired version of a Dora the Explorer Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade balloon with a bad leak. “You promise?”

  He looked at her, got that déjà vu feeling again, and fought off a shiver that had nothing to do with the dropping temperature. “If it’s okay with Pop, then I promise I’ll take you for a ride. But if Pop says no, it’s no.”

  Nicki’s eyes rolled around like a Magic 8-Ball landing on Don’t count on it and she dug her sneaker into the pavement. “Pop and Bree don’t have to know everything. I’m not a baby, you know. I’m almost eleven.”

  “That old, huh?” The girl was actually trying to work him. “Good try, Nicki, but I’m not gonna shake Bree’s cage. I’ll be here awhile, and believe me, when Bree gets back from her honeymoon, I plan to stay on her good side. I heard she took a cast iron skillet to Storm’s hard head—”

  “You should have seen Bree hit him with the frying pan of truth. It was epic.”

  “Not so epic for Storm, but it couldn’t have been that bad—he married her. I have no problem learning from my brother’s mistake. I’m not gonna mess with Bree—even for a kid as cute as you.”